Cause im not losing my war thats in my mind
and i will spread my wings and soar
and i will fly-and no i will never deny
whats in my heart whats in my life will be justified
the mean thoughts and cheap shots they will not weaken me
the mean thoughts and cheap shots well we're not weakening
The mean thoughts and cheap shots
i'm sorry i can't live up to your expectations. i'm sorry i'm not the girl whom you think is strong and firm on the inside and outside. i'm sorry i've offended you and you hate me. i'm sorry you don't appreciate me for who i am and my efforts and contributions. i'm sorry i don't sound nice. i'm sorry i'm selfish and i want to be recognised by man. i'm sorry i'm not punished by God by not seeking recognition from Him and Him only. i'm sorry i'm such a terrible and horrible person. i'm sorry i'm Calida. but i'm who i am, and i don't know how to change that fact. i don't feel good inside either. i feel terrible to be unappreciated and misunderstood. i don't want to feel like that either, but i'm human, humans err, don't they? i feel horrible that i'm feeling like that, i feel that i'm a terrible person. i'm struggling but can anyone see it? even if it's a test from God, i'm sorry i'm not doing well at all. i'm sorry.
