and so i said, would you like to watch the sunrise ?

2008-02-16T23:54:00.000-08:00

might be shifting to lj

http://stripeypotatoes.livejournal.com

BUT,
i cant figure out lj for nuts.

2008-02-16T22:48:00.000-08:00

2008-02-16T00:12:00.000-08:00

so there's no more tests next week but there's still a pile of things for me to do.
awesome.

what is what?
i can't make up my mind.
i don't think i even know what my mind is thinking.
awesome.

oh great why am i speaking like spastic yee.
ugh kill me.

2008-02-15T23:35:00.000-08:00

well, at least it's another week passed.
but i'm feeling empty.
weird.

dating back to chinese new year ..

daffy and flounder's cards.

i like this lorry (:

me and ade and the pretty daisy (:

4 wisdom (:

who shall it be?

i prefer it to be neither.

2008-02-14T21:05:00.000-08:00

i'm missing flounder, daffy, stinky shortie, and yilisha )':

i'm worried.
please be safe.

flounder and shortie flew off to phuket yesterday ):
pronounce phuket as fooket not pooket kay :D

happy valentine's all (:

2008-02-11T22:42:00.000-08:00

the time at east coast yesterday with semo and sher was fun ((:
i climbed up a rock and managed to get down! :O
hahah! they say im cartoon -__-
with how i scream when i cant get down a teeny rock hahaha :x
IM COOL LUH! :D

elisa left today for melbourne if im not wrong.

im gonna miss her like alot ):

just like how i miss chee kueh ):

take care yi li sha )':

i'll miss you lots )':

love you loads! :')

we love green! :')

school's sucky.
my grades are going down.
hoorrah.

2008-02-08T23:25:00.000-08:00

well, i feel a need to clarify this.
all those previous posts, with words in italics and in purple,
they were song lyrics and words from stories written by my friends, no other meaning, in case there was any misunderstanding.
purple is just a coincidence, as i aint a big fan of pink, therefore i use purple for those words.
i do not like anyone okay.
get that right.
you out there, watch out.

2008-02-06T16:00:00.000-08:00

basically today's cny celebration is RATHER boring.
but well, me and joelle accomplished something :D

the orange at first :D

so now trying to peel it (we don't know how to peel oranges :x)
p.s. sock yie helped start the peeling :D :x

hoorrah it's peeled! :DDD
hohum (:

enjoying the fruits of our labour! hahah!
actually joelle's labour :x
i look rather sleepy o.o

(:

this is melqlishadine without q, who's busy feng liu kuai huo-ing in taiwan.
hurr.
HAHA :D

class photos shall be up on class blog and i shall kope (:

to spastic:
I SO DO NOT NEED A PSYCHIATRIST.
you need a psychologist.
i shall ask soapy to counsel you.
i think you've sunk into severe depression by counting non-existent money for your yet-to-be ipod/zen player (:

2008-02-05T22:51:00.000-08:00

no gift's too small to Jesus (:

to spastic:
you can dream about being my guitar teacher.
i think i'd just die (:
HAHA happy thinking of other ways to earn money hohum! :D

to semo:
haha rather cool huh :D
i shall see on sunday if i go (:

2008-02-03T17:15:00.000-08:00

we will never know how big God is.
that is how big He is.

Isaiah 65:24
-Before they call I will answer; while they are speaking I will hear.

Jeremiah 33:3
-Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.

no matter what we do, God is always reaching out to us.
are we, the insignificant people, reaching out to Him?

All the heavens shout Your praise,

All creation bow to worship You!

2008-01-31T22:17:00.000-08:00

He knows where the hurt is the deepest,

the tears of the night and the day,

and whispering softly, "I love you,"

He brushes the teardrops away.

this week has been really tiring.
goodness me 7 tests.
today i just had 3 tests in a row.
after clit test i rushed up for maths test.
after maths test was elit test.
awesome aint it.
heh.
at least i've gone through it and survived (:
praise the Lord!

oh bother.
selling fiesta tickets on chinese new year with the school?
how fun.

this is how fast january has zoomed past.

oh it rhymes.

2008 ain't gonna wait for me and you.

catch up fella.

2008-01-27T18:51:00.000-08:00

as i said, open house was rather pathetic.
turn up was rather little.
sigh.

abian really looks like a farmer la! hahah :D
missions! (((:
farmer abian :DDDD super cute haha.

chrissee! looks super funny haha :D our infocomm boss! (:
he's super nice to bully :x
haha i love chrissee! (:
YAY INFOCOMM ALL THE WAY!

HAHAHA this one is damn funny.
ppl were bursting the balloons by stepping on them haha.
then i was covering my ears OF COURSE.
then he suddenly appeared with balloons and said:

"let's have peaceful balloon bursting hurhurhur."

well i screamed (UNGLAM D:)
hahaha then in e end he used scissors to cut the end and let it deflate.
and i laughed out DAMN LOUDLY.
hahahaha :D
super lame -.-
hahahaha super funny can.
then he took the balloons and inflated it and stuck it on his thumbs like swollen liddat.
super funny XD
then he said:

"stop (lifting the red ballon) and go (lifting the green balloon), hurhurhur."

HAHAHAHAHAHA damn hilarious XD

2008-01-27T16:26:00.000-08:00

so, open house was rather pathetic.
sigh.
hahaha :D

i knew my choice in friends were never good.
but still, i thank God for my friends in st nicks and grace, joanna, daniel yee and lam and my cg and cgls and many others in church but not those two.
get out of my life, but like what you've said, you two were never exactly in it so yea goodbye and have a nice life (:

2008-01-23T18:05:00.000-08:00

it only takes a simple melody and simple meaningful lyrics to make this song so wonderful (:
no special techniques or music effects or whatsoever.
amazing.

it's Os results tmr.
sigh.
pray for me ):

2008-01-22T23:40:00.000-08:00

go listen to this song: hold on by 33 miles (:
it's really nice ((:

I've been there a thousand times
I've felt the rain like a thousand knives
And it hurts
I know it hurts
I've been there like a fighter plane
Tryin' fly my way through a hurricane
And it's hard
I know it's hard
Don't be afraid You'll make it through
Just call out to me and I'll come running to you

Hold on, hold on
When the current pulls you under
And your heart beats like thunder
Just give me your hand
And hold on, hold on
Unitl the storm is over
And I'll be fighting for you
Just give me your hand and
Hold on

I'll give you hope, I'll give you faith
And if it's dark, I'll light the way
For you, for you
By your side, until the end
Until you're standing tall again
I'm here, I'll always be here
And if the tide, sweeps you out to sea
When your strength is gone, and it's hard to believe

Hold on, hold on
When the current pulls you under
And your heart beats like thunder
Just give me your hand
And hold on, hold on
Unitl the storm is over
And I'll be fighting for you
Just give me your hand and
Hold on

it's no use clinging on to something that won't have anything come out of it.
anyway, happy birthday jon! (:

2008-01-21T22:20:00.000-08:00

"being loved is a blessing, but loving someone is an even greater blessing."

well, do i believe in what i just typed?
maybe, maybe not.
gahh.

well, i'm not gonna lose my bet with daniel yee (:
i'm never gonna take the nickname about you being spastic down until you take down yours cause the things i've typed there are like so true (:
so be prepared to lose spastic :D

i croaked during worship on sunday out loud into the mike.
guess how embarrassed i felt.
and when i say croak i mean croak.
well, when you're coughing with phlegm and everything,
yea i think you get my point.

gah.
i need the photoshop software.
and i don't have it.
BAH ):
someone secretly taught me to download it illegally :O
someone who's really good :O
guess :D

thurs is the release of Os results.
Lord, bless me, and everyone else.
Amen.

2008-01-18T23:45:00.000-08:00

YAY bio test is over (:
hoohaha :D (i sound like caveman O.O)

worship prac was erm, fun :D
i went there and got made fun of the whole time glenn was late (specifically 50 minutes)
though we jammed during that time :D
i have made a new discovery: DAPHNE (daffy) is cunning D:
she was (i don't know how to describe this :O)
aha nevermind -.- :D
my bad habit of being rather bossy acted up during prac :/ :x
sorry glenn and team ):

like whatever to your actions. it's unforgivable in my eyes.
no one kills little lives like that.
get the heck lost.
until i decide to forgive you.
well, which probably is now.

2008-01-17T20:07:00.000-08:00

i still hate crows (:
that stupid crow stuck its big black ugly beak at us.
so fat. be careful that you don't die of adiposesic syndrome (something i made up well, about fat crows having too much adipose for having such a cannibalistic appetite).

i'm not confident about bio ):
scared.
i officially celebrate that i have no tests next week :D
even though i know that week 5 is gonna be bombarded with tests -___-
AND AND AND, plus the getting back of Chinese Os results, MIGHT spoil my mood to study :/
that is, if i don't get an A1.
gaahhhhhh.

2008-01-16T21:45:00.000-08:00

i hate crows more than ever now.
if it wasn't for the fact that it was God's creation, and that all of God's creation have a purpose to fufill on this earth, i'd found a shooting crows club.
i really would.

2008-01-15T20:50:00.000-08:00

gahh. i screwed up chem.
hope i at least get an A.
sigh.
for once i dont have any homework.
but then again, there's tests tmr, and thursday, and friday.
hoorrah.
cant you sense the happiness im feeling?

2008-01-14T22:21:00.000-08:00

i'm so tired my eyelids are closing down and giving up on me.
i don't want to give up but i'm struggling.
Lord help me, please.

and i hate the stupid smell of smoke that my father has in the house all day.
i hate the way my brother keeps irritating me after i've had one whole long and tiring day.
i hate how he doesn't appreciate what all of us are doing for him.
i hate him for making me hate him.
gahh take me.

had lunch with ruhua (joanna chuaaa) and chee kueh 2 in 1 (jacobooi the JIALAT haha :D) then a whole big bunch of people came (let me try to remember- ling nah, auntie on nah, ship, auntie pat, bennett, corinne, soapy, dexter, kenneth flower, dong dong, royston, leslie)
these guys had a fun time making fun of me i tell you. the cheekueh and ruhua were in some shop, i didnt wna squeeze inside so i stood outside. then i didnt know that they were standing right at the other side of cs so they started prank calling me- like once i was about to pick up my phone they put down. after i saw them i played along :D too bad luh. then i poked royston! haha he damn funny.

"i'm innocent! i really dno anything! ahh!"

he's really damn funny. royston GHEYYYY hahahah! :DDD ooh poked dong too then he got "cornered" by me o.O hahaha. cause he walked back and back and back into the space to go to lift and continuously said

"don't corner me don't corner me don't corner me!"

oh the hilarity.
hahahahaha! it was super hilarious X)
sigh.
i can't send cheekueh off on the 25th ):
and royston's leaving for army on the 25th too.
GAHHH.
so irritating.

and i'm getting back my chinese Os results on 22nd.
Lord i pray i get an A1.
Amen.

to eunice and tessa (if you guys see this): sorry about my attitude today about the pinafore. it's just that .. nevermind. i'll rectify it anyway.

2008-01-12T13:37:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling emo again.
don't know why.
i'm absolutely not in the mood to study.
i need to learn how to have a life and breathe.

i just need you more than ever.
but i just don't dare to approach you.
because i don't want to show you that side of me.
the side of me which cries out more than anyone else.

2008-01-11T21:38:00.000-08:00

Ti Amo

雖然是簡單的形容
雖然是重複的動作
因為有妳讓一切都變成不平凡

好想縫合妳我手心
就這樣牽住放不開
有你陪伴呼吸著有妳的空氣就是幸福

Ti amo Te quiero
每一天都要愛上你
想著你沉入夢境
一張眼一清醒第一個想到又是你

사랑하 And I love you
我每天都要愛上你
少一天就會遗憾
陪著你的光陰怎樣都不算蹉跎

好想縫合妳我手心
就這樣牽住放不開
有你陪伴呼吸著有妳的空氣就是幸福

Ti amo Te quiero
每一天都要愛上你
想著你沉入夢境
一張眼一清醒第一個想到又是你

사랑하 And I love you
我每天都要愛上你
少一天就會遗憾
陪著你的光陰怎樣都不算蹉跎

陪著你的光陰永遠都覺得不夠

2008-01-11T20:11:00.000-08:00

let me cool down.
i'm going nuts.
stop forcing me.
stop irritating me.

2008-01-10T23:02:00.000-08:00

maths test was HORRIBLE :D
YAYYYYYY (:
i still can't believe that 50++ sec ones signed up to join co.
well i know SNCO ROCKS (:

you you you.
keep interrupting my thoughts when i'm studying.
hahaha.
even though you seem nicer to think of than studies,
BUT STILL!
i have to focus, you.
stop intruding without knocking funny pots haha :D

2008-01-09T20:17:00.000-08:00

how humourous of seth tan to write this on the board today before our ss test:

"social studies common test 1 (out of the numerous tests in 2008)"

how moralising.
hahaha.
anyway,

Hey all!
st nicks is having a fiesta on 29th March this year! coupons are at 10bucks for a sheet!
from 9am to 5pm, come and leave anytime!
bring your friends along for loads of fun!
if interested, pls contact calida. thanks alot! (:

haha, i need to sell freakin twohundred/fourhundred bucks worth of tickets before next thursday.
GAHH!
like it's quite obvious that ppl still dont know their schedule for a date about 3 MONTHS later right! -.-
then what if ppl forget about it and lose the ticket as well?
loser st nicks.
kiasu pokks.

aha school's hectic. really really hectic.
well today i heard this song and it made me think of you (:

you stupid thing haha, distracting me from maths HAHAHA :D
well i dont mind (:
you're much better to think of than maths :D

2008-01-07T23:21:00.000-08:00

potato is absolutely adorable HAHA :D

"calida what's yvette's email?"
"hmm i dno it now but i can send it to you tonight (:"
"okay thanks!"

-------------------------------------------------------------

"hey potato! i've sent the email to your email alr! (:"
"i realised i have her in my contact list alr.. haha! (:"

BLUR POTATO AHA (:
he's paying me back :/
cause i waste his time now he waste my time HAHA :D
like whatever man! :DDD

2008-01-07T22:36:00.000-08:00

gosh. it's monday again.
i fell asleep in ahmeng's class (:
he was SO THICK SKINNED goodness!
he was like,

“为什么可函这么丑？为什么陈老师这么帅！”

i'm resigned to what life may bring man.

对于这两件事，尤其是那件事，我早已任命了。

and he violates school rules! he doesn't cut his nails and his nails are like SO LONG.
goodness me.
what a horrible person.
okay la.
maybe not THAT bad.
sigh.
well, "it is hard to be a parent nowadays. do you agree?"
that's my research homework -.-
awesome huh.

maybe someday, i'll stop liking you,
and you may finally realise my existence.

dannyboy unravel says: ghey

&Spastic Mcnublets! says: spastic

&Spastic Mcnublets! says: do you have to greet me ghey everytime huh spastic

dannyboy unravel says: YEA!

dannyboy unravel says: DUH

&Spastic Mcnublets! says: why huh

&Spastic Mcnublets! says: REASON

&Spastic Mcnublets! says: i demand one like NOW

dannyboy unravel says: im weird. thats a reason

&Spastic Mcnublets! says: oh yea

&Spastic Mcnublets! says: explains it all

HOW QUEER AND GAY. hahah :D

2008-01-06T23:15:00.000-08:00

went out at night to white sands macs to study with jc (:
rather fruitful time ((:
finished chem!
and abit of chinese and clit :D
yay :D
school tmr, got mep till 6.
RAWR.
okay bye.

2008-01-06T17:25:00.000-08:00

don't feel like blogging (:
crap mood.

me and beckie dear! (:
i love her loads! :D

galiang is so gonna kill me for this :x

me and sher have grassy hair :D
unglam -.-

haha SEMO!

ooh claire and her grapes :DDDD

anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY JD!

you're loved! (:

2008-01-05T00:04:00.000-08:00

how awesome.
i slept at 3.30am the previous night, woke up at 6am today, paid attention for all the lessons (minus the values talk -__-) and accompanied wang to cut hair then went for worship prac and now im still online at 12.04am.
aint i awesome.

worship prac was fun and hilarious.
stupid adriel wong.
you stupid dodo.
results of your dodoness by making me drum.
and ERHU is nice (:

thanks to yuan and galiang, i managed to survive last night and complete my stuff (:
really thank them for being there (:
yay :D

2008-01-03T20:11:00.000-08:00

just like her, i'm trapped in a room.

the 4 walls surrounding me, trying so hard to breathe.

reaching out for the light but it seems to move further and further away..

2008-01-02T22:59:00.000-08:00

sorry galiang, for venting anger on you.
i don't feel good about it.
really sorry.

i feel evil.
whatever to me.
6 points seem so far away ..

2008-01-02T21:18:00.000-08:00

i survived the first day of school! :D
yellow classroom for the yellow badge, rather cool huh :D
2nd Jan (with lessons), survived!

i bet mrs goh and miss rockey had a whale of a time calling us sec 4s D:

thanks for caring (:
i really appreciate it yea? (:
love you :D

2008-01-01T17:14:00.000-08:00

dannyboy confusion says:
MCNUBLET

i so am not a mcnublet.
daniel yee always cracks me up :D
spastic nubby.

i was so happy when i heard it (:
i zi highed in my room for half an hour, singing praise to God (:
HOORRAH!
YESSSS!
i love the beginning of 2008 already! (:

2007-12-31T13:38:00.000-08:00

im supposed to be doing elit now :x

im highly digressing :D

but on the last day of year 2007, i need to thank some ppl (:

first up, obedient flock! they have been great during my first mission trip (:

i had alot alot alot of fun with them! (:

love!

next up, my cg, passion! (: we rule yea :D

esp esp ling, who has been so patient during this whole year and hanging there alone (:

MUAHA. semo! (: who has been a fabulous friend this year (: listening to me talk about ____ and other ppl like ____ hahaha :D

also, potcargrape! for being the ultimate help in many things and sacrificing much time to help me even though he was rushing out his own projects too (:

dong dong rocks :D

lastly, my long lost sister JOANNA CHUAAA RU HUA :DDDDDD

she's fantabulous :DD

cause she's my long lost sister XD

cause I'M fabulous XD

then there's school ppl. like mel :D

and WANG :D

and ger (:

and of course, QLISHA! :D

haha of course, they are many other people to thank, whom i dont have their photos, like daniel yeeeee, galiang for always cracking me up, many uncles and aunties, infocomm! <3 and alot alot more. i'm sorry if i missed you out here :/

MOST IMPORTANTLY, i must thank someone who MUST be thanked, for without Him, i wouldn't even be here.

His name is Jesus (:

Happy New Year friends (:

Never Alone- Barlow Girl

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know

You're here and I"m never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life
We cannot separate'
Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

2007-12-30T22:15:00.000-08:00

Fall In This Place- Planetshakers

Take me to the place lord
Where there’s nothing else but me and you
Longing for your presence
I know that you are calling me to you

Here i stand
i long for your embrace
Nothing else
Could ever take your place

Come holy spirit
Fall in this place
I need more and more of you
Fill me again with the power of your spirit
Lord i’m crying out for
More and more of you

Lord i’m crying out for
More and more of you
Oh

2007-12-30T19:32:00.000-08:00

well, it's the 30th of december today.
on the 2nd last day of 2007,
the only thing i can say is that, i'll miss 2007.
missing COSI a lot )':
and HISC, even though i can go back anytime i want.
but looking at next year, the sec 4 year, i probably wouldn't be able to find the time.
sigh.
and i still can't find that stupid jacket of mine.
although there was some progress with potcargrape's help, i'm back to square one AGAIN.
WHY AM I SO CARELESS

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then i remember this little boy i saw at NUH, his name is zhi quan.
he's only 8 years old. but the first time he got fits, he got hospitalised and went into a coma for 5 weeks.
only recently he had woken up and got transfered out of the ICU.
i remember the tear stained face of his poor mum, struggling so hard not to cry as she told us the fate of her poor little boy.
they were buddhists, but still, knowing we were christians, they said to pray for them.
and we did, for both zhi quan and his mum.
then, his mum started crying.
so we comforted her and she felt better.
but, zhi quan woke up, and then, he broke out in tears, crying out so loudly in pain.
his mum, crying, told him that he was a strong boy and he would get past this illness.
he toned down, and his mum, knowing he was tired, asked him to go to sleep.
then he fell asleep.
when shermeen put her hand on the little boy's head and stroked his hair, she said this:

"when you feel helpless and tired, and you feel that you have no one to go to; when you're in pain and you can't stop it, call Jesus' name. call His name, and you'll feel better."

at that moment, i saw a tear drop down from zhi quan's left eye.
and really, i wanted to cry, so badly.
i knew it was a stronger calling, that i was to be a doctor, a paediatrician, something that i've always desired.
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i realise that i really really like you.
but will i wait?
my brain tells me no but my heart tells me go. tell me how.

2007-12-28T23:55:00.000-08:00

today is the last day im gna see the HIS kids ):
for this year i mean.
i definitely wna go back and visit next year (:
besides, i can actually study there :O
okay i love them and SAYANG (:

i love eddy! (:
finally gna see her tmr (:
joanna's loved too (:

im now jacob's chee kueh? O.O
haha i didnt know when tt became a fact :D
galiang's nice (: and dumb :D

2007-12-27T00:35:00.000-08:00

this is a story of a girl,
who did not cry a river nor drown the whole world.
she was just like your average girl,
average looking, average personality, average results.
she didn't really expect anything much besides having good results.
until she went back and met Him, and went to a totally new enviroment.
well, she still expected good results, but she became more playful, more outstanding, more outspoken, more bubbly, instead of just being the quiet girl next door.
but someday, some things went wrong.
and everything just fell apart.
she got left out and singled out as a bad person.
she didn't like it, not at all.

it was in a way, settled, but she still got left out at times.

yet, she kept quiet. she bottled it all inside.

her one true friend was probably Him.

she wanted to just tell her friend "why are you leaving me out. do you know how left out i feel? i don't want to be a spare tyre."

but she didn't.

she couldn't bring herself to.

was she being too nice?

to be continued ...

back from dance (3 hours continuously!)
sigh im TIRED.
tmr there's still carolling at NUH at 9.
SIGH.
but i feel abit of accomplishment (:
cause i did some homework at HIS (:
and at church (:
YAY (:
jiayous calida!

give me a hint,
anything,
to make me give up on you.

2007-12-25T23:49:00.000-08:00

it's been a long time since i've used the computer.
sigh.
time is catching up with me.
i haven't touched my homework AT ALL.
good luck to me.
i just cant stop going to HIS and take some time to do my homework.
sigh.
all the kids' fault.

anyway, CYC was awesome!
totally totally rockin'!
COP was amazing.
purely amazing (:

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! <3
and happy birthday to Jesus! (:

clearly, my brain thinks differently from my heart, therefore,
i need to get it out of my mouth and into your head,

2007-12-11T21:57:00.000-08:00

CYC's theme song: PICK IT UP by Planetshakers

I was blind but now I see
Love has got a hold on me
Now I sing cause I am free

So I'm laying down my life
And I'm taking up my cross

I'm taking up my cross
Laying down my life
All for the glory of your name

I'm living my whole life
All for you Jesus
Taking my cross up everyday

I was lost
Now I'm found
Put my feet on solid ground
Now I sing cause I am free

I choose to stand for my generation

2007-12-09T21:44:00.000-08:00

YAYYYYYYYY

2007-12-07T23:18:00.000-08:00

you're gna have a blast (:

bertram is absolutely adorable! >.<

cristi likes putting bunny ears on me :D

aha sengel the mischievous angel :D

cyrus finally decided not to be dao :D

but then, he reverted back to his old ways HAHA

see, still the same. SIGH

james is another absolutely adorable little guy.

IM A PHAEDOPHILE.

but bertram is CUTER!

my niang partner KORKI JON that speaks niangnified english :D

always makes me laugh :D

i so like these unglam shots of david tan :D

simin my pretty lil girl! (:

heh dahliah decided to be in e picture too :D

simin the kuala bear :D therefore im a tree O.O

:DDDDD

he was so oblivious -__-

memory game O.O

aha brian was pole dancing! XDD

DAHLIAH :D

xiao xinyi the singer :D

brian is like O.O and dahliah is eating the gun O__o

hahahahaha!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

clement decided to dance too :D

david tan is HILARIOUS

guess who's behind? :D

brian!

now that's why i love HIS connection (:

2007-12-06T23:56:00.000-08:00

BERTRAM IS ADORABLE! ^0^
i so wna take a picture with bertram 'cause HE'S SO CUTE! >.<
just feel like pinching his cheeks :DD
i wna take a picture with SAYANG GROUP <3333

2007-12-06T22:18:00.000-08:00

song of the day: this is SAYANG GROUP'S theme song (:

There's a calm surrender
To the rush of day
When the heat of the rolling world
Can be turned away

An enchanted moment
And it sees me through
It's enough for this restless warrior
Just to be with you

And can you feel the love tonight?
It is where we are
It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
That we got this far

And can you feel the love tonight
How it's laid to rest?
It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
Believe the very best T

here's a time for everyone
If they only learn
That the twisting kaleidoscope
Moves us all in turn

There's a rhyme and reason
To the wild outdoors
When the heart of this star-crossed voyager
Beats in time with yours

And can you feel the love tonight?
It is where we are
It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
That we got this far

And can you feel the love tonight
How it's laid to rest?
It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
Believe the very best

It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
Believe the very best

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOELLE WAAAAAANG! :DD

2007-12-04T22:47:00.000-08:00

it so has a funny ending.

파란 하늘이 눈부셔... 왠지 가슴이 아파와
나도 그대의 눈가에 이슬 맺히면
상상속에서 나~에게 다가올것만 같은 그대를
언제 부~턴가 기다렸었-죠~

아직~ 사랑을~ 몰라서.. 그댈~ 몰라서....
언제 사랑이 올까? waiting~ for your love
그대 조금만! 더~ 가~까이~ 올 순 없나요~??
내 사랑아 baby my sweet heart~♥

너무나 많은 사람들 어떻게 사랑 하는지
나만 혼자 모르고 살았나봐요~

아주 따뜻한 포근한~ 때로는 달콤한 사랑으로~
항상 진하게 내게~ 웃던 그ㅡ대~

아~직~ 사랑을 몰라서~ 그댈 몰라서~~
언제? 사랑이 올까~ waiting for your love~~
그대 조금만 더~ 가까이 올 순 없나요~~~?
내 사랑아 baby my sweet heart~

생각만 해도 너무나 행복한 너를 볼때면~
하루에도~ 수 천번 사랑한단~ 말~~~
언제 어떻게 사랑이 내게 오려나 기~다렸는데에
이미 온걸요~ 그댈 알고~ 부터어~

그대를 위한 자리가~ 내 가슴 속에 있어요~
나는 그대를 위해서 태어난 사람~
그대 내게로 온~다면~ 함께 할 시간 이~
순간부터어~꿈처럼 멋진 나의 사랑아~내게 오기만 해

2007-12-04T21:21:00.000-08:00

song of the day:

well, i'm happy to say i kena-ed the best at being problematic batch of kids at HIS.
and well, jon is also pissed off with some of them.
they cry and do everything else that makes me go uber mad.
kill me yeah?

you're leaving and i'm gonna just let you go

一天过一天

明天再见

这是你每次说的

一直都没有改变

你的无奈

我知道你的心已不再

放开

这是最好的决定

你的爱

已不在

我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你

不是我不放弃

是什么原因

你狠心把我丢在这里

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你

不是我不放弃

是什么原因

你狠心丢我在这里

一天过一天

明天再见

这是你每次说的

一直都没有改变

你的无奈

我知道你的心已不再

放开

这是最好的决定

你的爱

已不在

我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你

不是我不放弃

是什么原因

你狠心把我丢在这里

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你

不是我不放弃

是什么原因

你狠心丢我在这里

2007-12-03T15:42:00.000-08:00

sigh.

i failed on both attempts wanting to watch bee movie and ended up watching fred claus & enchanted instead.
i so wanna watch bee movie :O

i watched the sunrise! (:

well not really sunrise cause i was rather late and LOST, but yea still could see the pretty colours in the sky ((:

not bad la not bad la :D
will do FOR NOW (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAN (: you're loved (:

you really pain me.
why do the tears flow out so easily whenever i hear songs?
because they remind me of you, and your constant help.
yet, you seem to be oblivious of all these.
which just hurts me even more.

2007-11-30T15:15:00.000-08:00

it's erhu exam today.
i'm totally not in the mood for an exam.
only after i came online then i didn't have the mood.
i feel horrid.
and evil.
and guilty.

cause i'm feeling too evil and guilty to play it and practise again.
it happened last year and it happened again.
i'm really really sorry.
so why is my text in white when i'm a black person with a black heart.

2007-11-29T21:17:00.000-08:00

sigh.
november's over, december's coming.
time is passing so quickly that i can't catch my breath.
i'm gonna be sec 4 next year,
this year just zoomed past me, like BLINK and it was gone in a flash.
gosh.
i'm so tired.
not enough sleep.
not enough time.
gonna catch the sunrise! (:

i've been waiting all this while,
but now i'm thinking to stop.
should i?

2007-11-21T10:48:00.000-08:00

FATIGUE TAKES OVER ME OFFICIALLY (:

2007-11-21T10:42:00.000-08:00

work is OVER (:
but,
CO CAMP NEXT :O
after CO CAMP,
HIS connection :OO
then,
CYC (:

2007-11-16T22:55:00.000-08:00

SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY OVER!
well, minusing the part where i have to go back for cca and certain lessons.

today's first day at work, one word- TIRING.
gosh i stood for like 5 hours straight that kind of thing and talked till my mouth was dry and i didn't have any water to drink. horrid. and that stupid guy haha keep whacking me. asshole.

i still want to watch the bee movie and bryant's still treating me!
but the problem is,
i don't know when i'm free.

okay BYE.

2007-11-14T23:11:00.000-08:00

BEE MOVIE! (:
i so wanna watch this (:

2007-11-14T22:44:00.000-08:00

irritating. that's all i can say.

someone stop me from going to the library, if not i'll never get my holiday homework done, which is BAD.

2007-11-13T21:48:00.000-08:00

i'm really tired.
sleep deprived.
someone tell me why am i doing so many things.
gosh save me, anyone.

2007-11-13T21:31:00.000-08:00

i pictured us together, and realised that we probably didn't fit each other.
不用等你开口先说我爱你，在那之前想对你说我愿意，
then i thought how about how different we seemed, but yet inside, we were somewhat the same.
看起来似乎坚强开心，但内心还是脆弱的，还是会有伤心的时刻。
do we belong together? i really have no idea.

2007-11-12T21:53:00.000-08:00

it was horrid. just as i expected.
once i saw the first question, i blanked and unconsciously gave up.
then, i had mental block for the rest of the paper and i thought that time was at a standstill when time was ticking away, every second, staring into space.

won't you just get out of my mind, cause i don't want to think about you anymore.

dannyboy confusion says: YOU DAH NUBBBY

-points up- HOW GAYY/GHEY

2007-11-11T23:06:00.000-08:00

i'm SO SCREWED for tmr's trigo test (:
hoorrah.

this "screwed up" adjective totally suits me and my utterly screwed up life/character/everything else important (:

2007-11-08T01:09:00.000-08:00

if this were to be my TO-DO LIST,

i'd sort of be elated.

2007-11-07T22:22:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry i can't live up to your expectations.
i'm sorry i'm not the girl whom you think is strong and firm on the inside and outside.
i'm sorry i've offended you and you hate me.
i'm sorry you don't appreciate me for who i am and my efforts and contributions.
i'm sorry i don't sound nice.
i'm sorry i'm selfish and i want to be recognised by man.
i'm sorry i'm not punished by God by not seeking recognition from Him and Him only.
i'm sorry i'm such a terrible and horrible person.
i'm sorry i'm Calida.
but i'm who i am, and i don't know how to change that fact.
i don't feel good inside either.
i feel terrible to be unappreciated and misunderstood.
i don't want to feel like that either,
but i'm human,
humans err, don't they?
i feel horrible that i'm feeling like that,
i feel that i'm a terrible person.
i'm struggling but can anyone see it?
even if it's a test from God,
i'm sorry i'm not doing well at all.
i'm sorry.

2007-11-05T21:27:00.000-08:00

苦茶

微微笑的看你越是认真就越让人心疼
街头那盏路灯仿佛在笑我愚笨
没什么能做但我比谁都真诚
泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深

你知不知道你总有一种很可爱的独特
让我充满勇气抵抗冬天的寒冷
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你
在那之前想对你说我愿意
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你
在那之后你点头说我愿意
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

你知不知道你也有一种很可爱的天真
大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你
在那之前想对你说我愿意
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你
在那之后你点头说我愿意
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

虽然永远太不可能
少了你的完整
两个对的人奇迹就能发生

不用等你开口先说我爱你
在那之前想对你说我愿意
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你
在那之后你点头说我愿意
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

这一刻只想把你抱紧

2007-11-04T23:38:00.000-08:00

unfortunately, my happy days always have something unpleasant that happens. rawr.

this morning, happy that i managed to find a way to sneak the card into potato's bag, i felt a sense of achievement. then after fl it was fun talking alot to many ppl (: i thought going for taekwondo grading would be FUN, but guess what, i faced this really horrible old woman who started scolding me. i felt so irritated. here's what happened:

waihon approached me, asking me to bring one white nine girl, probably in secondary school, (heard that she's from the school near my school), to take instant photos cause she didnt bring hers. of course i said okay and brought her and her friend there then.

upon reaching there, her friend's mum suddenly appeared and it didnt really bother me at first cause she wasn't exactly paying much attention to me. so when she asked who i was i just said i was an instructor. and she just looked at me from head to toe, like she was thinking how could someone like me be one. so fine, i didnt care. then that girl finished taking the photo and the photoshop lady said we had to wait for 10 mins, so of course i said that we should just stay there and wait for the photos to be printed because without the photo, her grading card would be rejected, so there would be no point. besides, i also said, if she missed her grading time, the examinors might not allow her to take her grading. so you know what her friend's mum started saying? she starting scolding me in chinese, as if she knew better than me. she said that i was being dumb and i should let the girls go back to take the grading first with the grading card without photo then later she would bring the photos back and explain to the sir. she also said like how come i couldn't understand such a simple logic. stupid brainless fool. she was SO trying to be a smart aleck la that hag.

so obviously i said you can't take e grading without the photos because you'd be rejected and guess what, she started scolding me stupid and she said dno what i study in school for and everything insulting. at that time, i really wanted to just kick her ass and ask her to get her stupid daughter and company to get out of taekwondo, but remembering the social ettiquete course from mr chua, i just said, okay we go back. of course, being me, while walking back i was thinking, "who do you think you are? and who do you think knows better about all this stuff? me, a taekwondo instructor even though minor i may be, or you, some random old woman who starts insulting people when your IQ is just like negative." what a freak. so then i brought the girls back, and they mysteriously disappeared. so nevermind. i went back to sit with weikang, then i thought okay, phew everything was over, of course after complaining to weikang, being calida :D then i saw the random old crazy woman coming back and she came to our table and started asking where her daughter and her stupid friend was. so weikang was like i dno and i was like i brought them back alr but dno where they go. obviously she alr have smth against me (stupid old hag) then she started complaining abt me to weikang and once again repeating that dno what i study in school for. lucky i was calm if not i would have just taken a taekwondo belt and whack her till her mouth turns rotten. so weikang asked her to relax and everything and i just shut up, not wanting to rebut cause i didnt want more trouble and she started saying how hot she was, as in warm and we were wasting her bloody precious time and all. then i was thinking again, like hello, we're wearing our gee and clothes inside, who do you think is hotter? besides, you're the dumb one who wants to wear long sleeve in singapore, so why are you blaming us for the hot weather? stupid old crazy hag. then nvm i went to find her stupid ppl and i couldnt find them at all. then in the end they talked to merly mdm and apparently stuff happened and they didnt take e grading.

so, when i knew that, of course it was when that stupid old hag came to our table to complain again. so, apparently, her daughter and friend lost their grading cards, but didnt tell us, so not knowing, waihon issued another card to them, but the results sheet from the last grading wasnt there, so couldnt update. then merly mdm said tt they said they didnt want to come for this grading so we were like really confused. nvm. then you know what, she blamed it all on us, saying that it was our fault that her daughter and friend misplaced the cards and i said to the sirs there, i saw her two bloody stupid ppl holding e cards when they were talking to merly mdm. so i went to find them, hoping to clarify the truth and guess what, they'd gone home. buttholes. nvm so i went back, and she said we were a bunch of irresponsible ppl and that we were wasting her bloody precious time making her feel so hot and everything. she even threatened to call the police la. but when she was gone, waihon was like, "call la, like as if the police will handle. it's your daughter and her friend's fault what, like what can the police do to us and the stf. lame. dont need to care about her. crazy one." WELL SAID LA. stupid woman, tts why i said that her IQ was negative, looks like her EQ is also negative. then she was like not only threatening us AND examinors from stf (high positions) that she would call the police but she would also get her two stupid brainless ppl to quit. then she stormed off. and guess what, we all were laughing. cause merly mdm, their teacher said, quit la, i dont mind, im happier actually, because they are so useless :x i totally was like HOHOHO can! those two idiots, wore the uniform like it's some home clothing or smth. they wore their belts as hipsters and pulled their upper gee out like pulling pe tee out lidat. wth. super messy can, you're supposed to tie belt at waist and your gee is supposed to be smoothed down. idiots. GET OUT OF TAEKWONDO YOU FOOLS. i really hate that stupid old hag. insult me. like COME ON GET A LIFE YOU FREAK. your daughter is studying in that freaking school near mine, you know what is the difference in aggregade score you brainless fool, more than 40 over points okay DUMB! might even go above 50 la! so if i dno what i study in school, then i guess your daughter does experiments on stools/faeces/SHIT in school luh. stupid old hag. ruined my day. GET LOST.

okay i feel much better now (:

2007-11-01T21:32:00.000-07:00

我突然感到很彷徨，有种束手无策的感觉，真的很难受。。。我也不想这样，但是，我还是会有这种感觉。。。
有时候，真希望有个伴在身边扶持你。。。可以说有朋友就够，但在心里，我总是还会要一个伴，相信很多人也是这样。。。
喜欢一个人，却说不出口，我想，应该是很难受的吧，痛苦可能会有点夸张。。。

默默爱着一个人，他等待她，他却不能和她在一起。。。因为，从一开始，生活方式就已经是天渊之别了，就算是互相喜欢，也应该不能在一起吧。。。
他在为她痛苦难过吗？她知道吗？
虽然他很痛苦, 但表面上装作若无其事。。。她会替他难过吗？
她也不想这样，看到他这么难过生气，你认为她好过吗？
她心里虽然想爱他，但她知道是不可能的，因为她不敢保证会不会喜欢上另一个人，何况，他们俩身处在不同的地方，很难担保。。。但要她说出伤害他的话，她做不到。。。
在她心里，另有其人，但她也不敢确定自己是否真正喜欢他。。。那她该怎么办才好？她知道对身处在外国的他是不公平的，她很在乎他，他也在乎她，但不能在一起，他们被许多东西影响。。。她真的好难受啊。。。
会有人救救她吗？把她从这个烂摊子捡起来？

2007-11-01T20:15:00.000-07:00

i can't go for the patayaa trip ): cause i'm poor.
dang it.

2007-10-31T22:43:00.000-07:00

this potcargrape called daniel lam is absolutely funny and adorable :D

he yaays for me because i finished chinese Os when i thought he was yaaying for himself that he has almost finished the recordings (:

he's super nice and funny and super cute hahaha :D

2007-10-31T20:00:00.000-07:00

this song is equally nice (:

2007-10-31T19:33:00.000-07:00

this song is super nice (:

2007-10-30T16:33:00.000-07:00

yawns.

once again i have so many things to handle and it all comes crashing down like BAM.

thankfully there's someone/people to help me like ahyee and the rotten potato :D

and of course there's my dear beloved daddy GOD! (: <33

busy AND sleepy.

gta meet rotten potato to sing in a utterly chillified and fried sore throat condition D:

dang.

like chinese Os is in 1 day, aka TOMORROW.

and i'll admit it,

even though it's chinese, I'M SCARED.

shoooooo chinese.

life and how much it stinks me up

2007-10-26T21:34:00.000-07:00

life really awes me.
it is so full of uncertainties, and i don't like it.
sometimes i would really prefer having my whole life planned, doing everything God wanted me to, created not to disobey.
but then, i guess i would be struggling to break free from that rigid cycle.
of course, i thank God for giving me the right to choose, even though it may not be His will.
so i was just thinking, if i could choose so many things, why couldn't i choose my family?
again, i'd say, life stinks.

2007-10-25T19:54:00.000-07:00

don't know why but the feeling of being emo suddenly floods over me,

2007-10-23T21:04:00.000-07:00

this website, http://www.stf.sg, has highly demoralised me, after chan waihon's stupid remark.
gosh. dang.
RONALD! :'(

2007-10-23T20:27:00.000-07:00

gosh. i know how she's feeling.
it must be terrible.
ohno. cheer up kay (:
i'll be praying for you (:
it'll turn out fine (:
gosh, i can't do anything to help and i feel terrible.

2007-10-22T17:42:00.000-07:00

after a hiatus i'm back :D
today is qlisha's birthday! :D
nevermind no one will know :D

anyway, marks update (i have utterly horrible marks)

english: B3

emaths: B3 (relatively good considering that 24 out of 38 ppl in my class failed and the highest is like 70, an accurate A2)

amaths: C5 (gah dont talk abt it, then again i didnt study so it's my fault)

higher chinese: C5 (i was sleeping through the paper :x)

chinese prelims: A1 (see the difference? :D)

bio: A1 (horrible, i didnt study.)

chem: A1 (horrible, yet great :D cause i topped e class :DDDD)

elit: C6 (utterly disgusting :( )

ss: C6 (Gosh i actually passed it! :D cause i wrote 3 lines for a 7m reliability question and i got L3/3! :O amazing!)

clit: B4 (amazing too cause i was stupid enough to do all 9 questions when we were only supposed to do 6 -___-)

mep: A1 :DDDDDDDDDDDDD (im utterly happy about this cause i really didnt study for this one :D i only started flipping in the morning :D then again, it's just world music so ..)

i have to thank daniel lam aka pokeable potcargrape for his constant help and support.

gosh he's great! (:

and really nice, nicest guy i've met :D

he's utterly wonderful (:

thank you batam potcargrape (: i shall not be anti barney for your sake :D

living with my brother drives me NUTS.

chinese Os next wednesday.

oh the horror.

2007-10-09T11:41:00.000-07:00

how wonderful and fascinating to see that everyone is going

HOORRAH NO MORE EXAMS!

and here i am, wallowing in self-pity and despair that i have one more paper to go, which is MEP.

it's interesting to see fellow students wallowing in self-pity together though.

but then, think again, i'd rather have MEP as it might actually pull my grades up.

now, it's time to say WOW.

then again, when i realise that i've screwed up amaths today, and cheated the feelings of the pe leaders together with me being cheated by jiaee and facing a horrible emabarrasment in front of manymany people, i start laughing at how intelligently stupid i am.
quoting en: people keep finding new ways to celebrate idiocrity. -sighs

2007-10-08T16:12:00.000-07:00

>dannyboy<
COUNTER-ATTACK!
>dannyboy<
summons a dragon to EAT YOU
>dannyboy<
laughs at the pile of bones.
C is for me, rawrs says:
continues slapping you with bones
C is for me, rawrs says:
and using the bones to whack your head
C is for me, rawrs says:
and poke your fats
>dannyboy<
err.
>dannyboy<
in case you havent noticed
>dannyboy<
YOU ARE THE BONES
C is for me, rawrs says:
im bones that are ALIVE
C is for me, rawrs says:
nyahahahah!
>dannyboy<
well then.
>dannyboy<
i run away
C is for me, rawrs says:
i chase after you!
C is for me, rawrs says:
NYAHAHAHA
C is for me, rawrs says:
you now see millions of bones running after you
C is for me, rawrs says:
nyahaha
>dannyboy<
i jump into a mech and fly away
C is for me, rawrs says:
the bones jump on a magic carpet from aladin
C is for me, rawrs says:
AND CHASE YOU
C is for me, rawrs says:
hohoho
C is for me, rawrs says:
the bones say: VICTORY IS MINE!
>dannyboy<
err.
>dannyboy<
my mech roasts your measly flying carpet
>dannyboy<
and jumps into HYPERDRIVE
C is for me, rawrs says:
then the bones will develop wings
C is for me, rawrs says:
and fly after you
>dannyboy<
im too fast for you
>dannyboy<
i throw my bio textbook at you for 100000000000000 DAMAGE
C is for me, rawrs says:
no my bones are equally fast or faster
C is for me, rawrs says:
and throws my amaths textbook at you
C is for me, rawrs says:
NYAHA
C is for me, rawrs says:
it's a fatal blow!
>dannyboy<
but amaths is EASY
C is for me, rawrs says:
ohshutup
C is for me, rawrs says:
just like BIO IS EASY
>dannyboy<
i deflect it with INTEGRATION
C is for me, rawrs says:
BIO IS EASY~
C is for me, rawrs says:
-whistles
C is for me, rawrs says:
CHEM IS EASIER ~
>dannyboy<
WHATEVERYOU
C is for me, rawrs says:
CHINESE IS EASIEST
C is for me, rawrs says:
HOHOHO
>dannyboy<
ERR
>dannyboy<
whatever
C is for me, rawrs says:
hoho
C is for me, rawrs says:
you lost
C is for me, rawrs says:
NYAKNYAK
C is for me, rawrs says:
NUBBY NUB NUB

how interesting and queer O.O how childish can people get! :x

2007-10-08T15:35:00.000-07:00

to all sec 3 st nicks pe leaders: please meet mr phee outside the pe department on 9 october (tmr) at 10.30 am (:
COMPULSORY!

2007-10-08T14:35:00.000-07:00

2 more papers. tell me i can do it.
then i'd say, boy you've made my day (:

2007-10-07T21:30:00.000-07:00

as i watch the boulders click to destruction, i imagine myself as those boulders getting destroyed by satan. i imagine myself as those boulders, weak without God's strength. God is the one i want to seek and gain recognition, not man. He is not a God created by human hands, nor is He dependant on any mortal man. From before time began, He was seated on His throne, clothed in majesty, power and glory.

2007-10-07T21:06:00.000-07:00

being at a supposedly young age of 15, once again i realise that i do not think like a 15 year old. watching dramas, somehow make me think of life. even though it's drama, and there's definitely elements of exaggeration in it, but doesn't drama just reflect real life? looking at how it is, drama has to be based on something to be thought of isn't it? i've just thought again, what if i do not live to even go to university? what if i find out that i have some illness that might not be able to be treated? what if i die in some accident before i can even take my Os? after all, i'm always shuttling between sick and healthy, and i have not seen a doctor for very long. it just makes me wonder, what if i do become a doctor? what if i do save so many lives? i don't like the word what if, but, what if i just die one day? i've been wondering a lot, how do people faint? i actually want to know how it feels like. it's a weird thing, but i believe, to really understand what patients are going through, you might actually have to go through something similar to it yourself to understand the situation they're in. think about it. when you face something that might have been caused because of you, naturally you'd feel extreme guilt inside of you even if you do not show it on the outside, and frankly, it really does not feel good. not at all.

我只是在想，如果有一天，我发现我有一种绝症之类的，你，身为我的朋友，会怎么做？但，再想想，我大概可能也不会告诉任何人吧。当然，我的家人大概都一定会知道的，但，我看我是不会告诉任何朋友。虽然说，朋友在世上就是为了朋友而生存，人与人之间，就是互相依靠与依赖，但，作为别人的朋友，也应该不会像要别人替你担心，不要在他们的麻烦上再加一个。知道了，他们也应该帮不上什么忙吧？也许我这种观念是错的，但如果我真的有病，我是一定不会告诉我朋友的。况且，我认为如果我真的有病，是上帝的安排吧，要我早一点与他见面，这也不是一件坏事啊，为一想做的，大概就是把剩下的日子过得最充实。我真希望如果那时，我身边有个伴儿，希望他不会伤心，要他继续活得充实。但，想起来，在那个时候，除了家人和朋友，我应该也不会有伴吧，哈哈。。。

2007-10-04T15:12:00.000-07:00

everything has been stinking, super smelly.
SS stank, today clit stank.
i can't believe i'm so dumb.

You are God Alone

You are not a god
Created by human hands
You are not a god
Dependant on any mortal man
You are not a god
In need of anything we can give
By Your plan, that's just the way it is

You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
You are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

You're the only God
Whose power none can contend
You're the only God
Whose name and praise will never end
You're the only God
Who's worthy of everything we can give
You are God
And that's just the way it is

You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
You are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

Unchangeable
Unshakable
Unstoppable
That's what You are

You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
You are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

Unchangeable
Unshakable
Unstoppable
That's what You are

2007-09-29T16:18:00.000-07:00

i really need to watch the sunrise, to forget all my troubles once again.

why does man like to find so much trouble for himself?

ask me why, and i have no idea.

the emoativity reaction in me is still taking place and it's not gonna end soon.

so if i ever offend anyone because of my emoativeness, i apologise.

Does Anybody Hear Her- Casting Crowns

She is running

A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

She is trying

But the canyon's ever widening

In the depths of her cold heart

So she sets out on another misadventure just to find

She's another two years older

And she's three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

Or does anybody even knows she's going down today

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

She is yearning

For shelter and affection

That she never found at home

She is searching

For a hero to ride in

To ride in and save the day

And in walks her prince charming

And he knows just what to say

Momentary lapse of reason

And she gives herself away

If judgement looms under every steeple

If lofty glances from lofty people

Can't see past her scarlet letter

And we never even met her

He is running

A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

2007-09-28T22:10:00.000-07:00

i really don't like that mask.
i really don't like it.
i can't look to it for help, because i'm not sure when it will reply.
at my weakest, it's not it, but some other people like ahyee who's always helping me somehow, and of course the Lord.

Lord i pray for peace and calmness in my heart and mind, that you remove all fear from me and be with me.

Amen.

it was the one who offered its help.

but now, when i want to turn to it for help, i can't find it anywhere.

what am i supposed to do.

i'll admit it.

i'm afraid.

2007-09-28T18:46:00.000-07:00

hohoho.
i'm doomed.
extremely extremely doomed.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUIJUAN! (:
she's the founder of RJC okay! quite big shot one yknow :D

2007-09-27T18:46:00.000-07:00

SS and EL paper 1 over.
well, SS was DISGUSTING (:
i totally conked out for the paper (:
i wrote 6 lines for 7m reliability WOOTS.
i rock man.
ss does not want to be friends with me.
so be it (:
i don't mind (:

higher chinese paper 1 tmr. WOOTS i <33 chinese (:

i wonder how it would feel like to walk in the drizzle with your loved one.

2007-09-23T21:41:00.000-07:00

what a weird dream, i don't know.

yaaww it's 3 days to exams :l

i did maths for 3 hours today :O

BEFORE

AFTER

what a big change. he was more innocent back then HAHA :O

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROWN PIG ! (:

i can't believe i put his face here :O

2007-09-22T14:04:00.000-07:00

YAAWW. exams are next thursday.
i don't like thinking.

2007-09-20T22:17:00.000-07:00

what queer "luck".
i saw benjamin hum yesterday, and today i saw wu fu kuan (dno english or whatever name).
i met both participants while using public transport.
how interesting.
maybe i'll see shawn tok tmr -____-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEEPO :D

2007-09-19T20:13:00.000-07:00

you look rather good [:
i'd like to see you again [:
yup.
will it be allowed ? :l

2007-09-18T22:03:00.000-07:00

exams in 9 days. fascinating.
i like the new channel 8 cid show (:
if i can't be a doctor i might actually consider that career :D
cause it's cool and cooler :D

2007-09-17T20:04:00.000-07:00

i've realised.
it's 10 days to exams.
and i'm not actually very started on revision.
so,
my conclusion is:
SHUCKS.

2007-09-16T17:06:00.000-07:00

WAIHONG IS DUMB [:
EGO AND DUMB [:
i can't imagine the sight of him when he goes to NS and gets his head SHAVED :O
it'll be so funny! :D
also, i can't imagine him in a business suit! x)
i'll laugh my head off x)
SORRY WAIHONG :D
asking you what and where you studied wasn't meant to ridicule you I SWEAR.

2007-09-16T16:47:00.000-07:00

it's good to know you have people that care [:

i shall do some quiz on deb's blog [: cause i want to :D

Seven things to be done before my death

1. eat all the candy, ice cream and potatoes in the world [:
2. go out into the world touring and evangelising [:
3. [if i've finished my studies which hopefully is medicine] find a cure for incurable diseases like cancer [:
4. adopt little kids ! [:
5. sponsor a COSI kid [:
6. have no more enemies and clear all misunderstandings [:
7. most importantly, pray for everything and everyone and thank God for everything [:

Seven things I will not do even if it kills me

1. try to make as many enemies as possible -_____-
2. kill people O___O
3. take drugs x_____x
4. smoke x________________________x
5. not bathe O________________O
6. not eat O___________________________________________O
7. most importantly, NOT LOVE GOD :O

Seven things I do when I'm away from public

1. wear tiny clothes which reveal my fats :O
2. have unglam hair :O
3. have oily face :O
4. fart :D
5. study :O
6. singing in shower, trying to attain my highest pitch and going off tune :D
7. pooop DUH -_____-

Seven favourite sentences/quotes

1. ohmytian
2. huh
3. dang
4. rawr
5. yay
6. whee
7. hohoho

Seven things I'll make you wish you didn't do if you did

1. whisper in front of me
2. insult my friends in front of me
3. whack me :D
4. misunderstanding me
5. sucking up
6. taking my food away
7. most importantly, insult my God :O

Seven people I love
1. Jesus
2. SEMO :O
3. potcargrape! :DDD
4. ahyee! [:
5. danieeeeeeeeeeel BQ! :DDDD
6. FAPP :D
7. batam C :DDD

there's still alot of ppl i love [: like my family DUH, and alot of BMC ppl [:

2007-09-15T14:16:00.000-07:00

i wonder how sometimes the virus manages to attack the body.
this virus is attacking my heart and mind then.
and i don't have anything to fight against it,

2007-09-13T22:50:00.000-07:00

"I'm Forever Yours" -Planetshakers

I give my all to you
Send me and i will go for you
To the ends of the earth
I'll follow after you
I want the world to know
Your love endures forever

Tell me and i'll obey
This is far greater than sacrifice
Trusting you and not myself
Will always lead to blessing
Lord have your way in me
Not my will, yours be done

Here i stand within your presence
Longing for your touch
A thousand days cannot compare
To one day in your courts
Hold me nowAnd never ever let me go
My jesus, my precious saviour
I'm forever yours

I will worship you forever
I will worship you
[I'm forever yours]

2007-09-13T22:15:00.000-07:00

it's really cool when you point a gun at someone at say cheese! instead of freeze! x)

bummer. i really don't like exams :O i'm studying an average of 14 hours a day :O
OH THE WRATH OF ENGLISH LITERATURE ESSAYS ! >:(

2007-09-12T20:11:00.000-07:00

it's really fun to sit with eunice though [:
i'm feeling accomplished with the studies [:
TESSA'S CLASSIC LINE: oh my god what happened to tuesday! x)
had a really good laugh during self study :DDDD
eunice and tessa are the funniest people ever :DD

OH AND I PASSED SS TEST FOR E FIRST TIME :O
with an A1 somemore! :OO
AWESOME!

2007-09-11T22:24:00.000-07:00

you know you make it so hard for me to forget and let go,

2007-09-11T17:30:00.000-07:00

bummer. the school blues. post exam blues.
i wonder if i can camp in school?
then i think i'll actually be productive in my studying.

to driel:
your brother DANIEL BQ2 WONG IS CUTE AND ADORABLE [: extremely cute :D my brother is not daniel. daniel is cute, my brother's not. my brother's nuts, daniel's not. DANIEL IS BETTER [: appreciate your cute adorable little brother you monster !